So, the big life changing stuff

I've been wrestling with how to say this stuff all week. So I figured short and sweet.

For five years, I've been dating Dina. On Tuesday night, completely out of the blue, she walked out on me. There was no real warning (although she claims that there was) and it really, really hurt me quite a bit.

For the first few days, it was a feeling of shock and abandonment, because right now, things are really tough, money's tight, and the two of us have been fighting through the rocky waters of life for so long, it just seemed impossible.

But, now that the first week of it has wrapped up, I honestly think I'm better off. I loved Dina a lot, but, she'd become a big obstacle in my life. I mean, look, within a week of her leaving, I'm already back to putting together my music which I more or less abandoned when we started dating cause it irritated her.  This has given me a laser-point focus on what's really important in life.

Plus being able to come home when I like, watch what I like, not have to race around the city to take her hither and thou... It's kind of nice. I still miss having someone warm next to me in bed, and there's pangs whenever I walk out of a movie or finish watching a tv show that we both loved and all I want to do is talk to her about it.

But, it's not to be. And, well, I'm actually okay with that.